For the past 2 years my New Year resolutions have been to discover better visions of me. Sparing no expenses.
This year I'll be 28 and although I am really looking forward to my 30's and being a grandma, having nothing but older friends has made me realize, I need to make the most of "what's left of my youth" in order to really be where I "want" to be in my 30's. And thats more on an emotional note than anything else.
In my early adult years circumstances prevented me from being your standard American adolescent. For starters I left my parents house at 15 supported myself through high school, new york and college and by 26 I have 2 kids with 2 dads and still single. Im sure you get the math.
Having kids changes EVERYTHING. But in this case as it should be in all cases, my kids have been the best thing that has ever happened to me.
The truth is that when you have kids it seems as though there are pieces of you that die. But as I witness now, they actually grow and flourish. I have realized that I cannot teach, motivate nor expect for my kids to strive for all the best in life, if I inhibit myself from achieving the same. And settling.
For now it seems that-that is the worst fate you can give yourself in this life. To grow tired and settle. For if you settle now it would defeat all the work you've made thus far.
So this year is the year I take back control and rediscover my dreams. Without fear of judgement, or hesitation to take a risk in pursuit of a better version of me. My kids will learn that anyone can dream no matter how big or small just as long as they put hard work into it and they'll witness that dreams do come true!
If when you reach for the moon you fall. Atleast you land amongst the stars.
The truth is that when you have kids it seems as though there are pieces of you that die. But as I witness now, they actually grow and flourish. I have realized that I cannot teach, motivate nor expect for my kids to strive for all the best in life, if I inhibit myself from achieving the same. And settling.
For now it seems that-that is the worst fate you can give yourself in this life. To grow tired and settle. For if you settle now it would defeat all the work you've made thus far.
So this year is the year I take back control and rediscover my dreams. Without fear of judgement, or hesitation to take a risk in pursuit of a better version of me. My kids will learn that anyone can dream no matter how big or small just as long as they put hard work into it and they'll witness that dreams do come true!
If when you reach for the moon you fall. Atleast you land amongst the stars.
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